The Next Project ***1

It's been so long I never keep in touch with you
Then I left the tiny moments till the complex conditions just gone by
I caught myself in the middle of the self realization
There are many things that I should fixed with myself,
The wrong perceptions, got in intricate reasoning, too much considerations ultimately no found anything
As the mankind who is growing up which adaptable with the environment and conditions
It's time to set the new direction
Twenty something already
Must to do what should you have to do
What's the freaking point thrown out?
YAH.. means that it's time for you to be a mature lady then find the right man
Gosh!! yeah it's time for you kid
What are you waiting for taking the heart right away
You just do in the doubt all the the time
The second guessing always break your mind already
The frozen heart which untouchable often
No, stop for now on.
You will get nothing if all you  do is just waiting for,
But doesn't mean you do stupid thing like all you know just  "love"
But when you are waiting in line and let yourself got in the doubt like you've been doing
You find none than nothing
Try to open the heart let  the spark of love from the devoted gays caress you gracefully
Feel all the beauty are coming across your side
Let them lead you to find the fortune while your heart opens

After all "Okay.. I'm trying then.. 

Weird

Hay.. Hay..
I'll tell you about something that so weird. It was happened last night when I was taking home
There's something  that I haven't understood yet is still about "Fiance" :)
Such it's the command of the God which' entrusted to them to the  unpredicted people
Well, since a couple of last day, I met to the people who unknown and we got in the interesting discussion and some of the points gave forth the implicit message that "Da you should have known that the married life is not a piece of cake, you have to prepare for it, as the lady you must to be like A, O ,D, G,Z many things.
Huft, I don't really understand how tickled it was :)
Yay.. I'm kind of the girl who always utilized the power of thought to analyze, understand and break the signs, kind of the thinker :P "philosopher" the cool hollo..:P
I had made a deal with myself that for 2011 let to be something hollow, I am not really sure with myself that I am well to have a relationship, well then I said to myself being single is never wrong just rather hurting "LOL"
Why??
Yay.. maybe in some occasion you got the joy of the freedom but the most of the empty soul ganw you out away

Fiance

X: It's weird sound LOL "Fiance"
Y:  Whatta hell with this word :D??. ehmm I think fine, okay depend on the sense to feel it Hay :P.

Well, here it is the new thought comes out the mind. It's just because has been happening with myself till now "on" maybe :P. What's damn that??. Yeah "Being Single" I know most of my friends are curious about me, why I'm still keeping being single, in time had a chat with my old friend, the question that never left, "Who's your boyfriend, oh no, I'm sick of this question,  it's common question which' thrown for me, truly I have no reason for that, I tell you frankly. We gotta find it out, actually me myself is curious too, Whatta cause I'm still being single. Ok, stop asking for no answers, Let's find it out together.
It's just a few considerations but I am not really sure is it the cause??

• The hardest thing for is I cannot fall for someone simply with simple reason, with simple decision because it's gonna invite knotty risks (but if just have an eye I so often)
• But I'm so hard to forget when my feeling fill out the jar of my heart
• I always try to preconceive before I decide to take care of the guy
• All this time I just loved for the wrong guy
• Pious Fiance is all I expect to, I'm responsible to be single because I won't be in relationship which' I got the wrong guy, being single is the easy way to keep all the purity of love.
• On my thought as the girl we must keep our pride,self esteem, I just won't do stupid things that did by others
• None others could keep the prestige just yourself, how the way you interact and associate with your everything around you
• Some thoughts Im kinda a picky dude, but I have a reason for that, all I'll give to you my "Spouse"
• Means because I expect for the best I must do the best too
• All the goodness we did will be multiplied for the best thing

But, don't think it's easy to face I fight for it so hard , as the normal girl having the one who cares about always be a dream all night, but I deal with it in patience.

Hey Fiance.. When you know it how hard I fight for this what's the reward you gonna pay??